thanks to april chan for these two pix:
cocaineI first tried the stuff at Swarthmoredone it 'bout five or six times between my first and most recent time - I find the stuff too powerful - it makes me feel greedy, for more coke, more conversation, more power.
half an hour after they left, I was high, drunk and tripping - many hours later I snorted a small line of cheap coke and stayed up even later chatting mindlessly.
once I felt like I had a magic force field, tangible manipulatable physical magic energy that I could send out or pull in around me
powerful, sure, but not for long. I hate being jerked around like that. Afterwards I felt a bit deluded, though that magic force thing's something nice to think about now and then, maybe in an elevator
If I do enough to feel it good, I'm worried I'm going to die - my heart pounding in my chest, tremors and shivers.
Definitely a high maintenance drug - expensive and frequent.
and it made a certain asshole of jorge
cocaine has appeared in my dreams.