back chillin' in the e-minds crib
second day in a row, christiana massagewayne coerced kari to purchase lunch for he and I
today is this breakthrough
that I said I was going back to swarthmore
because of my friends mostly
but I have friends here
and there is more to that place than those people
and so if I go, how will I do those things?
or will I do some more like this weekend
you have a nice place to leevand I begin to think
a good job,
so why would you leeav dis?
envision the ideal
unfettered learning time
and a desk at an office with voice mail and a fat net connection
and all of a sudden it is possible
and I reaffirm my decision to postpone decision on my future college career
and I remember that I am coldall these ideas flood into my head as I am freer from worry
and christiana can sell me her old comforter
and she reminds me to check the fireplace
and I remember I need a tea pot
having let go of my future plans
or rather attachments,
I am aware of my world around me,
tonight I will be cold.
tomorrow, I would like tea.
this is more important than what is six months from now
and will likely change by then.
so I can go to swarthmore, and visit my friends
I dream of distributing most of my possessions there
keeping all my books on a public shelf at cyborganic
and christiana observes,
that if I am to serve as any kind of servant or guide for folks
I need to learn that lesson to teach it -
to worry or plan your future is to foresake some faith in flow.
and this, she does,
add my birth month, 12, day, 16, and year, 1974
all digits combined equal 4
4 then is my birth card in tarot
joined by vjim and turntable philip
meetings at mindshoward invited me to a katie hafner cocktail affair
the more testy other folks
often the more upbeat I am
by the end, everyone's been testy,
everyone is joking.
down south in palo alto
but I have a lot to do, it seems
so he gives me ten seconds to decide
I scoff at that pressure he leaves without goodbye
I have a great meeting with abbeI have a vision for a future pedagogical expansion of electric minds
informed by this morning's clarity
I'd like to stay past launch
but I want to be a student
so like a 3/4 time or half time worker
and a book writing public library denizen otherwise
these resources, these people,
I could implement something wonderful
I think abbe understands
I'm very excited
and I stay laterdinner with wayne and vjim
our admin hilarie was a wheel of fortune champion in the 70s
much shit talk
gossip and plans
vjim regrets not being geek cereal participant
the way we work, it's like
of 12 hours at work
11 spent on spacebar
and that last hour, we're the fuckin' hottest god damned digital drone on the block
jim sez, we should find our friends who work like that,
and start a business!
wayne sez wrong.
I like to make cool web pages, I want to start a business
nuh uh. they don't go.
too much overhead
kind of like me,
I want to write a book, I want to start a publishing company
scale life to live off parttime/freelance salary
and make good on your days
checkin' out the crested butte weather
listening to nas
break for tai chi - too much wrist pain.
Date: Wed, 02 Oct 1996 14:08:56 -0700
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tomorrow, I leave for dstory.
abbe's going to help me get there,
the two of us, and spoon,
it's 4am, and we're still printing shit out at the office.