arguing conclusion with an old flame
someone I slept with
we talked too
objects to objectification
being made a web page (I ran it by her first) it is rather explicit)
even accused me of orientalism
(she's in shamanism).
can't understand why people let me put them up here
there's nothing of her in those pages
she doesn't think there's really any of me in here either
so what's the point?
sort of like shamanism, utterly objectionable,
making yourself a screen
but we do it anyways it seems we have to
she did with me,
using our new class lingo,
she put me up on a pedestal
now fortunately she can't remember why she was ever attracted to me
so she doesn't know why she's getting back into this
why is it weird?
why did I make her feel insecure?
you really do seem to think you're on a mission justin.
maybe I shouldn't sleep with people anymore. that was the lesson I was drew with aylapage too wretchingly wraught a string of stereotypes, she said.
back to the drawing board.
maybe if I'm otherwise happy, I should be celibate
tonight peter brooks told me my lakota name
"Peta Wahinkpe Wan" or "Fire on the Arrow" means that I "bring excitement to the people"
he addressed me a brother,
that made me happy.
Dom's got some post college career crisis
offered the cush compucareer versus freelancing instability
I posited star wars guidance, his New Mythology
it's probably not as clear as the empire and the rebel alliance but it could be
we cast the I Ching
somehow it always seems appropriate.
maybe I should try it with Ayla.
changed most bottom page links
to "justin's links" from the underground abridged.