an old freshman flinger
stopped randomly for my roommate
I unloaded months of sexual tension
relationship qualms power issues
I don't regularly consult my friends
unfurling doubt seems indulgent
but I do this random unloading
and this web therapy
what wisdom! she
respect and conserve power
respect and observe power
try dating someone in their twenties and feeling 21 year old license conflicting with lecherous inclinations
(surrounded by these nubile beauties, I feel a horny old man.
visually arresting people
I invited someone with pretty intriguing presence
out to paces tonight
not much to go on, a little reserved nature with mutual piqued interest
from what she's heard,
I've sacrificed meaningful personal relations
to my to my vision.where is sacredwe all have our walls barriers privacy?
hers no less obvious, halting than mine
she admits to manipulation for the sake of
her questioning listening eyes averted answer refusal
guarded, obvious in turn in timeI talk for 10 minuteslisten, I like to take some encounters
try to turn the tables
and I'm talking again
I don't think it's me.
as far as they will go
I don't care so much about direction,
I just want them to go places (or really be here, if that's your metaphor)
we had an outward tradjectory but soon reaching the limits of gravitational pull we're now in a tight orbit
I've got to go
beginning to collect her things
something about distanced people
they're tempting and they don't always want to be distanced
patience is a lot of it letting go is most of patience
and maybe I felt like talking about my dad
not so often occurance
"do you curl up inside when you think of him?"
curl up and grasp.wallowing's good
like the intangible within
the intangible other
prone to pity
yeah, but when I wallow
fuck them for this
or they don't understand that
or I deserve this
I end up compassing the suicidal suffering
still a legacy of rage
that's demanding answers from a dead man
now looking moe within.
after that unloading
it didn't matter that she didn't talk
I had gone somewhere within
she'd been there watching
so she said some stuff
she said she does"n't want to be naked on my web page")
so what are your sex issues?
my turn on the floor again
torn between limitless
we feel vulnerable.
I've revealed a heck of a lot to you!